It’s been 3
weeks since I put my mission papers in, but according to Shirley, the mail in
this neighborhood is super slow. But what does that mean? How slow? Will it
come tomorrow? Or not for another week or so?! It’s driving me crazy, I feel
like everything is taunting me. The cat, the birds, the wallpaper… everything
whispers… “You still haven’t heard?”
When Railee was
waiting for her call she compared it to the clip from Kung Fu Panda 2, when
Shifu is trying to get inner peace. I’d say it was a perfect analogy.
Even at night I
can’t get a break from it. Before I sleep I attempt to clear my mind, read a
book, relax, listen to music etc. But I keep dreaming of opening my call. Two
nights ago I had an inception style mission call opening. In my first dream I
ran to the mail box, ripped open my call, and started screaming because I was
going to Brazil. I then called Railee and we started planning out how we were
going to be in the MTC together, and we could write to one another in Portuguese.
It was pretty awesome. In the dream, I began to dream again, and I opened
another letter going to a different mission in Brazil. I then started to dream
again, I got my call to yet another mission in Brazil. When I woke up from the
first two dreams I remember being confused because I knew I was called to
Brazil but I didn’t know which mission. Then I woke up for real… everything was
a dream, I don’t have my call, and I’m not going to Brazil. Ugh I guess I enjoy
having entertaining dreams, but I’m not sure they’re worth the disappointment
when I wake up.
Patience is a virtue, one that I’m slowly
conquering as I begin the trek that is my mission.
Hopefully I’ll find out tomorrow or Friday,
we’ll see.
